The dreaded D word- Determination

It is pretty funny how sometimes you are struggling with certain things in life, and something comes to you at the right time for the right reasons. You read something that helps you out personally and gives you that new awakening. I say this because
my friend Lauren recently posted on her blog about the word "Resolve."

The definition of Resolve in this situation: A firm determination to do something.

Resolve: Something I will be working on for the rest of my life! I tell ya, it is not easy, and I still struggle with it. For example, lately I have been realizing more in life that I am "more talk" than anything. I have SO many things that I do not follow through on. I am a very dependable person for others, but when it comes to my own personal life, I do not accomplish those goals like I say I will. I am very good at accomplishing goals for others and meeting the needs of others (I can do this so easily for a class of 27 third graders), but when it comes to meeting and satisfying my own needs, things just always fall through the cracks.

This last weekend, there was a bike race that I was planning on riding in, so I began training and riding. It was 25 miles long and I knew it was going to be a challenge for me, but I was determined. The day before the race, I just did not feel ready, so I bailed and gave up. I had been planning for this race for over a month!

I gave up.

This summer, my friends Lisa, Heidi, and Kristen have started a book club and our first book to read was "To Kill A Mockingbird." I started reading and was supposed to be done this last week.

I never finished the book.

To work on resolve, it requires a mental dedication, that I am still working on as a 23 year old. Just like when it comes to reading your scriptures everyday. You have to remember that great feeling and remember how much more blessed you are in life if you set those goals and do what you are supposed to do in life. For some reason, remembering this feeling is hard for me to motivate myself into accomplishing those goals.

I think of my dear friend Stephanie and how she can run marathon upon marathon, and how determined she is in her life to keep up that training and to be able to run each race and finish with that feeling of accomplishment.

I may never have resolve with running (Ha ha!), but I would love to start feeling more resolve in my personal life in other aspects.

So as I work on my so called "laziness" and work harder to focus on my resolve, I will remember how it can make you a better person in life and help you to truly feel happy in life to work at something and reach that finish line, even if it may be 25 miles away.

(Thanks, Lauren for your post)